Ramble v.1
So I’ve found that my being alone with my thoughts is a dangerous thing. It gives me too much time to dwell on things and read between the lines. I end up coming to conclusions that are non-existent. Its frustrating mainly because I want to stay positive and clear headed.
Another reason that my brooding is such a killer is that it eats away at my wanting to commune with God. It gets to a point a lot of the times where I feel like He isn’t as near to me as He could be. Given, I know the theological implications of that statement (I’m the one drawing away from Him, etc.), but that doesn’t change the fact that those are my feelings. I know my feelings can be deceiving, but thats only because the Bible tells me so.
I hate sounding doubtful or weak, but my feelings are far more tangible these days than God’s presence.
I find myself reading my Bible because its what I’m told I should do, not because I want to. I don’t know… Things are difficult.
